iyo, why are you so nice to me uh?

-i m serious when i say i dont like commitment. 

been so long since we last meet and i dreamt of u ytd. the dream seems to be so real that i slapped myself awake and tell myself, tts not happening pls. -.-” maybe its something you wished for but yet, not something i wished for that much. hmm. i dono what am i saying but yea. lets take a break and have the best kit kat yo.

okayyy, i m used to having J with me. my lovely love. and her itouch is seriously addicting. gosh. and tonning at her house with M was awesome. i want another night like this plssss. geeeeee.

iyo. and one more thing to add on, my fucking ipp start 8march. and i dono if i still want to work in cathay or not. any feedback, pls text me uh!

helllllllllo! ((=

OMG!!! i had my first teq shot last sat~~~~~~ thumbs up* one whole jug of coke vodka + one teq shot = semi high. i had my fun share of fun that day. but feeling 100 times guilty as he had to take care of me, making sure i m okay and causing him to be like semi bored. )= teeeheeeeheeeeee. but tt time zirca u are drunk. so we are on par alright? teeheeeeeheeeee. 

Kee kee helped me and my friend cut hair. damn cooool! but i dont realy likeeeee my hair. so short short short. ><! alright, no quarrel anymore. i wana cut bangs. LMAO! and be chubby girl. lalala!

have a kit kat, i need a break!

i love my life like this.

idiotic, playful, carefree and single life (((=

YO earthlings! ((((=

how can he look so cute yet so monster! omg. 10mins out of the cage and he go acting like some monster. but how to overwrite the fact that hes cute yet so monster! :B

OKAY! 2 weeks break ended alrdy. start sch for almost 2 weeks alrdy as well. sad to say, play and play and play. damnit. i m so afiraid that i so gona flunk any module this sem. i dont want. )= and today, i m ponning school again. awwww. maybe i shld bang my lovely head onto the wall sometimes. and wake up and rmb the fact that i need to graduate!

Currently texting with b buddy! (((= hes prolly the best buddy i found in NYP. i know he do read my blog and alot of things, we cant say in real life nor msn nor sms due to pride. but still, i could type it here free and easy! tyvm bmn! rmb 223 okay? i owe u so much that i dono when can i repay you! heeheee. wishing ya all the best in life and continue the grade! you aree hardworkin and smart, but i am not. sometimes i can sense that u are trying ur best to make me study but i guess i m simply too lazy. heeeheee. and those sweets that u buy for me, its all in my stomach! and those sweets that i buy for u, its in ur sotmach as well. but cant be compare with wat u buy for me. u are like forever buying for me!!!! awwww! glad to have u 223!!!!!! (((=

and.. i went to find J tt day regarding him. J say hes happy that i look for him yet sad to know the real reason that make me wana find him. i wanted to confront J at first but upon meeting him, seeing him so tired, simply think that i shouldnt say those crap. J bombed me with a qns regarding him. i answered with what i have in my heart. i know J didnt believe. J commmented that i treat and care for him too much that it seems like i like him. i struggled off with a smile and deep in my heart, i know i dont. but another side deep in my heart, i dont know what i want. i dont wana hold on to J cause my like for J lose to him. yet i m being so contradicting towards J sometimes. so contradicting that he commented he dono wat m i thinking at times. i told J i m ET and i will be off to my planet real soon. hes super pissed off with this. maybe this is good. if one day i just mia, he might just really believe i went back to my planet. HAHA!

 

Life is short. Enjoy ur everyday! (((=

Sometimes i prefer doing closing with malays.

They seems to be more hardworking.

Yet, sometimes i prefer doing closing with chineses.

They seems to be more fun.

Fun or hardworking? Chose one.

I think certain things, count on yourself will be much better afterall. (=

i wish i could find another hardworking himmm. ):

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oh boy, u make me feel so fucked right now.

sometimes i like you yet sometimes i dont.

sometimes i like the way u do things yet sometimes i dont.

sometimes i feel like having you yet sometimes i dont.

sometimes i miss you yet sometimes i dont.

you say u give up on me alrdy due to my indecisive.

i wanted to hold you back but i paused.

because i realise, being together dont just concern two of us.

i dont want you to hurt him. i dont want me to hurt………….

aiya, anyway, its just just just fuck lar.

i will not text you nor call you anymore.

i will detele ur contact as well.

like wat i say to u, back to normal lifeeee.

Byeeeeeeeeee.

Baby are you down down down down down?

Yawn! party @ zirca ytd was freaking boring. i guess it was overly crowded thus making it fucking boring! ): danceee and drink. didnt drink much. plan of opening a bottle was cancelled. due to too crowded and almost all the table occupied? double sadness. wanted try shots but didnt too. kinda ex as compare to dbl O. but ah hui say he willl drink with me next time at dbl O. simply cant wait. hiak hiak hiak. but dbl O dancefloor cui as say but not just one person but more. teeheeeeeheeeeee. 

meet up with Glen for dinner last min ytd and chat. he commented that i look nice. HAHAHAHAHA! dont roll ur eyes hor. Hes leaving to some other places. sad to know that but the good thing is, he say if i want to visit him, he will sponsor my air ticket. HAHAHA! omgggg. YAYNESSSSSS. and this is prolly the biggest hint he give me to let me know where he will be going. ohhhh. and he love the pen i give him. teeheeeheeeeeeeee.

Missing ikea chicken wing~~~~~~~~~~ ):

Sigh.

i told him i so gotta be normal back a few months ago.

till ytd, i realise i m too greedy.

A story that is made up of my innermost feelings. Words cannot fully narrate the entire tale. Put yourself in my shoes. You have to feel it. But, be forewarned: I hold no responsibility for your reactions towards the end.

i despice Cathay like seriously. Because they fired Tom P just because he pon work twice? and the rule was to get fired if you pon ten thrice!*

In a sense, Because they have got more than enough staffs thats why are able to fired any staff because of a small mistake they make.

you see, this make no sense to me yo.

What about the hard work that he once put in? Be it, really hardwork or just work for the sake of money.

and come on, who dont work for the sake of money?

ok, maybe someone, you-know-who. i shall not name it out as you-know-who will google his name and later he found my blog equal to GG! GG cause i m always cursing Cathay when you-know-who love cathay so much. teeheeheee!

back to the point,

i think of quitting cathay again. I know i can find other job outside but, its the travelling that matter yo.

but come to think of it,

if i start work at 6pm, i always leave my hse at 5pm. and the thing is i stay yishun -___-” and i reach at about 525pm then get change and all, i am all ready at 535pm yo. and i slacked and punch in at 550pm.

so if i work somewhere far, just that i dont get to slack first eh?

Okay, i am tired. Lets think about this next time alright?

Maybe life will be better if i got sacked. -at least i dont need to think -_______________________-”

precious brain cells. omg.

avoiding your love,

cause your love is too hard for me to take.

cause you forget the fact that i might like you back as well.

avoiding your care,

cause i m such a bitch that i dont deserve you to treat me well at all.

cause you are so nice to me that i feel guilty for not being able to treat u that  nice as well. 

avoiding your emo,

cause i want you to be happy as i treat you as friend and nothing else.

cause i want you to lead ur life happily and not by drinking and all.

3 different avoiding for 3 totally different people.

sigh. totally defeated.

Dad told me Mum like my Ex-bf alot. and i thot, she was the one who ask me to break with him cause he look like a playboy? and i wonder why did i mention break with him just becuase mum mention that hes a playboy.  and if i could turn back the clock, i will not break with him for that hes a nice guy. but is that love? sometimes i really wonder.